The beginning

I think maybe I should start with a little background information...

I was born and raised in Minneapolis, MN. I probably never really fit in with the other kids...don't know why but I always had so much more on my mind. In high school I was the definite misfit. I had a couple friends...all girls. I really loved music...dancing, singing, and living it. I started going to concerts when I was 13 or 14. It was a blast. I met my best friend, Elizabeth aka Lizzies/Bubbles at a concert in Eagan, MN. Sadly, we rarely talk anymore. The concert was for an up and coming boy band called Take 5. They were put together by the same genius as Backstreet Boys and *NSync. (I think Mr. Pearlman has some factory down there in Orlando.) Anyways, every concert or meet and greet in the area me and Liz were there. Honestly, I think I saw way too much during them days. Before becoming a "groupie" I believed that the image these bands and artists portrayed was real. Well, it was about as real as reality TV. They were so scripted...but behind the scenes you saw the drugs, sex and ROCK AND ROLL. That is after all what its all about, RIGHT? I don't like to say too much. I have had some of those folks call me and pretty much tell me to keep my mouth shut...haha, well, just one in particular. They know who they are...haha, I was never a real fan of yours anyways. YOU WERE MY CONQUEST!!!!!!!!!

 So, my parents divorced when I was like three or something. I was young, don't remember much. My dad met this lady on the internet and in December 2001 he moved us all out to Pierre, SD. I really hate that town...if it weren't for my family there I would probably never even pass through.

About my life in Pierre. I was 15 when I moved there. Needless to say, there were no concerts or meet and greets. I was bored. Summers out there were awesome. Drinking, boys, and party, Party, PARTY! My step-cousin, step-sister, and I had a blast with a crew of "wheat whackers" aka harvestors. (What up Befort boys?) Yeah, who cares, I'll admit it. I have no regrets in my life. Guys take advantage of girls all the time. So us girls had us some fun. My only friend in high school was my step-cousin, Jenny. We were partners in crime. To this day people our age in Pierre will say "there was two of 'em."

Sometime during my high school days at good 'ol T.F. Riggs High I sang with a group. There were 3, 4, or 5 of us. I can't remember all of the events, but it was drama. Girls are so damn bitchy. I swear. But hey to the girls of Mistik later known as 31S I wish it could have worked out because you still are some of the most talented girls ever!!! AUBREE -I wish we could have reconnected...sorry we grew apart.  JESSICA -I don't remember what really happened. We stopped talking and then there was a lot of talk behind each others backs. I think about some cowboy named Jared. Well, he wasn't worth it. You coulda had him. Ahh, and finally SAM -Well, everything really got messed up when I married your cousin. I'm sorry that you couldn't see how he was treating me. You have no right to talk shit...you didn't have to deal with his crap day in and day out. And you know what is the most sad about all that. WE WENT THROUGH A LOT BEFORE JOSH!!! Remember you always liked to have my sloppy seconds. (Jason P., Clyle) Oh well, wish that we both could have been a little more grown up about everything. Hey, and you might wanna lay off the dope...FBI was watching that trailer you lived in on Sully.

Well, after high school, I moved back to Minneapolis. I took my boyfriend at the time, Josh, with me. We had an awesome relationship for a long time, but then he got crazy. Always accusing me of cheating. I ended up pregnant in January 2004 and had a beautiful little girl on September 16, 2004. I married Josh on October 1, 2004. Josh accused me of cheating constantly from the second we got to Minneapolis, through my pregnancy, and by December 31, 2004 I had enough. I figured if I was being accused of it I might as well be enjoying all of the sex on the side. Josh was verbally, emotionally, and somewhat physically abusive to me during our relationship. We broke up off and on for the duration of our marriage. He was charged with two Simple Assault: domestic. I don't really remember what exactly he did the first time, but the second time was on August 3, 2005. He tried taking our daughter out of the house and wouldn't tell me where he was going. I was scared of what he was going to do with her so I tried to stop him. While holding our daughter, 11 mos. at the time, he went on to grab me, shove me, push me. I was defenseless since I couldn't do anything to him while she was in his arms.

A little more on Josh. He was a marijuana addict. Possibly still is. I don't know. 90% of the time that we lived in MN he didn't work and got me in debt with my grandparents. I paid back my half of the money to them, but Josh hasn't made an attempt. Josh was arrested for Distribution of Marijuana with intent in Spring 2005. Get this, he got off with 30 days in jail...that's it. And 2 years probation. JOSH NARKED OUT HIS FRIEND, Chris. All to save his own ass. Josh used to get angry if I would take a shower, dress nice, and/or put on makeup before I left the house. He used to tell me nearly daily that he hated me or wished I was dead or wished he had never met me. Glad to be away from him, if only he would just keep the divorce rolling. Then I could let this all go.

Anyway, my step-cousin, Jenny introduced me to her husbands friend, Jesse. Jesse is 26, from Bismarck, ND. Jesse and I both agree that it was just a one night stand when this all started. One thing led to another and I needed to get away from my crazy ex so I moved to Bismarck to be with Jesse.

Jesse is my everything. I still can't believe that someone like him is with me. HE IS THE BEST THING besides my daughter THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!! We are a work in progress, but one thing is for sure is that we are madly in love. He has shown me how happy I can be and what I deserve to be treated like.

So theres my story thus far. There is so much more, but I could go on for days!!!!

This is me....any questions? Just ask.

Later///

+++Angie

"LiFE iS a BaLaNCe oF HoLDiNG oN aND LeTTiNG Go" -Keith Urban "Be Here"